April Was a Dumpster Fire, and I’m Done With It
After a brutal month and a lifetime of unfinished starts, I’m done waiting to fix my life. This is the start of my honest journey toward health, clarity, and control before I turn 40.
I turn 39 next month.
And I'm not even close to where I thought I’d be by now.
April wrecked me. Physically, emotionally, mentally. In just a few weeks:
- I had my gallbladder removed
- Fought through shingles
- Ate like garbage
- Slept like a vampire
- And was a terrible role model to the little humans I’m supposed to be raising
It sucked. But maybe it also woke me up.
For a long time, I've been floating.
Too much debt. Too little energy. A brain wired by ADHD, screen addiction, and a late-night routine that feels like self-sabotage. A body that’s heavier than it should be. A soul that’s been tired for way too long.
I’m married, with a toddler, an infant, a high-energy German Shepherd, a mixed-breed cat, and a purebred Maine Coon.
I love fantasy novels, sci-fi, music, gaming, photography, tech, woodworking, and DIY projects.
I also have a habit of diving headfirst into hobbies—hard, fast, and expensively—then abandoning them before they can become anything real. It leaves behind clutter, guilt, and half-built dreams.
But mostly—I just want to get better.
“This isn’t about crushing it before I hit 40.
It’s about becoming someone I’m proud of.”
This Blog Is My Reset Button
Failing Forward to Forty is my way of showing up.
Not perfectly. Not polished.
But publicly—even if I'm anonymous for now.
I’ll talk about:
- Losing weight without a gym
- Learning to parent without becoming my father
- Kicking addictions (Starbucks, sugar, screens)
- Fighting ADHD with playlists and structure
- Paying down more debt than I ever intended to carry
- And trying not to lose myself in the process
If you’re here, you might be going through it too.
Welcome. You’re not alone.
Let’s fail forward together.
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If any of this hits home:
- Bookmark this blog
- Check in during the week
- Or just come back when you feel stuck—this space will be here
I'll be posting five days a week, sharing real progress, setbacks, tools, habits, and honest reflections. No filters. No fluff.